I never believed in “speaking it into existence,” in fact, I thought it was a form of jinxing myself or robbing myself of any opportunity that could arise. I sort of just let it happen and hoped for the best, quietly.
I realized I was terribly wrong. As a child, I wasn’t taught to “speak it into existence” in fact I was taught that words should not affect me and that actions speak louder than words. I was led to believe that my actions defined me, which in some part it does, but on the other hand shouldn’t we be judged by what we don’t know or how we learn. Who I was as a child is not who I am today, I have experiences, knowledge, and confidence that helped shape me into who I am. I have faith and belief in myself more than ever before. Since the summer of 2017, I found myself speaking my dreams, achievements, and even failures into existence, and guess what it all ended up happening: good and bad. I went from a nonbeliever to a firm one.
Let’s start with my breakup, not only did I tell myself but I told my friends and family, that I was afraid this won’t last. I literally said, “I’m afraid to make this move, my relationship won’t survive this, but I’m going to move and support him anyway.” Less than a month after I moved to Georgia, we broke up, and girl it was a terrible one. I was alone and depressed in a new city (in no way shape or form am I trying to play the victim, I’m just speaking my experience). I thought it, I spoke it, and it manifested. When I tell you I was depressed, I mean I was so far from myself, I didn’t even know who I was anymore. But I had to get over it, I needed to get myself all the way together and back to the person I knew, if not better. So I decided to articulate more of the things that I wanted for myself and what I needed to remember.
The first thing I did was create daily mantras to help me believe in me again: “You’re strong, you’re loved, you’re healing, and I love myself.” Although that wasn’t the only factor that led me to my manifestation, it made me feel more confident and capable of achieving. Saying things that you don’t necessarily believe to be true at the time is HARD, but constantly saying it aloud makes it hard for you NOT to believe!
There was a period where I was so uninspired, I couldn’t even perform at work. I said I was going to be better at my job and I will get a pay increase. That mindset then developed into me seeking ways to get better, whether that’s through reading, attending webinars/seminars, etc. Guess who’s making big money now, lol not me, BUT since then I’ve received three pay increases and I’m transitioning into my fourth one.
I said I was going to Afropunk and I was going to represent what I believed in and that will get me featured, guess who got featured? (SB: if you haven’t gone you need to, it’s so great for the culture and Solange was amazing!!!)
I said I was going to meet Yvonne Orji and tell her I don’t want to be Molly anymore, this ain’t the life I’m trying to live (maybe just the successful part), and I did.
I spoke into existence that I will rebrand myself, build a new website, and consistently write about the things that make me happy. I hope you’re pleased with what I’ve presented you with so far. And just so you have an idea of my growth, take a look at my old website: iamfeistyy.com (it will be there until July 2018).
I spoke into existence that I will get acclimated and meet people that I can vibe with and be myself around. Today, I have a lit blogger tribe and a bomb organization that supports Black bloggers right here in Atlanta, among the others who have just been super supportive of me, genuinely.
I said I’m going out every weekend to explore Atlanta, no matter what. My New York friends are going to be so proud of me when I tell them I got a list of spots to go to when they visit.
And lastly, because I can really do this all day, I said I was going to join organizations that help support the causes I’m most passionate about. Guess what? Ya girl joined forces with Kenda Davis, Holistic Wellness Coach, to create a space for people of color to be themselves and have a supportive environment to help them manifest who they want to be through the Soulcare Wellness Series. You can learn more about that, here.
I also joined the Epilepsy Foundation of Georgia to help raise money and awareness by those affected by epilepsy like myself, you can also learn more, here.
I want you to understand that I listed these things because “speaking it into existence” really helped me believe in who I am and create a mindset that allows me to see what I need to do. Not only does hearing it make it more believable, but God is listening, honey. If it’s in his plan, he will lead you there. There are so many scriptures that support the art of speaking things into existence:
Proverbs 18:21: “Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.”
Matthew 21:22: “And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.”
Isaiah 55:11: “So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.”
Loving yourself and believing in yourself can be hard, especially during tough times. There are times where I can’t find the words I need to say to myself, but I speak to what my purpose is and why I’m here. I didn’t want to write this week, in fact, I was going to write about something completely different, but this morning I took a minute and had a conversation with myself and decided this NEEDS to be discussed.
“Words are our most inexhaustible source of magic. Capable of both inflicting injury, and remedying it.”
― J.K. Rowling